Who do you say that He is...
Who do you say that He (God) is? If you were to really think about it, who is He to you? Is He just a name in a book, a Savior, a friend, or a tyrant? A string of questions I know, but who He is to you matters more than you think! Who He is to you, or who He will become to you can change your life in a dramatic way! It is with a smile on my face that I say...God is so good!
I can only attest to who He is to me and I love to testify of what He has done. This life of mine has not been the easiest, it hasn't been the hardest, but certainly not the easiest. I have had many struggles along the way and I am still not where I thought I would be at this point.
When I married at 21, I never thought that my husband would develop an alcohol problem. Even then I never thought I would have to make the difficult decision to divorce 7 years and 2 babies later. I never wanted that. I prayed and I prayed for peace and safety, all the while praying for a heart change and some will power for him. In the end it broke my heart but at the same time, I made that decision for my 2 daughters. I did not want for them to grow up thinking that was what a relationship looks like, because it was not a healthy one. I didn't know why God did not answer my prayers and restore my relationship, at the time. My mind and self esteem were wrecked. I was broken and even though I had been through hell and what felt like a war zone for years, I wasn't sure who I was without it. It was a very difficult time and I thank God that He preserved me through that. I could've turned to drugs or alcohol and at times I wont lie, I may have tried, but it never got that far.
A year later I met the most wonderful fellow. I have no doubt that my God sent him. I had no intentions of dating anyone at all, I was not ready. Remember that hyena from last week, yeah. This guy was so different from any. He didn't drink, was very respectful, so generous, and just altogether genuine. We became good friends over time and I remember thinking that he would make an excellent husband for someone someday! Well, I fell in love with the guy and 13 years later here we still are.
I wasn't looking for it, but I know that God sent me just what I needed. Someone that He would use to restore me, to help heal me and to help me see clearly who the Father says that I am through providing a safe and loving relationship. A partner that stepped in as a father figure for the girls that they truly needed. I won't lie, I do struggle with the fact that we are not married yet even today. There were times when he may have been ready but I wasn't, and times when I was ready and he wasn't. Rightfully so for both as I had been through the ringer and I needed a lot of time and healing, and for him he would be taking on more than just a wife, I came with a lot of baggage! Now, we are working on it and I am praying through it. We are both in a place where we are ready and I believe moving in that direction. It is all in God's timing.
I don't share this part of my life to boast on him, but to boast on Him! Through all of that I learned some of who He is to me. He is my provider, truly my rock. My Redeemer and refiner. Through all of the madness He was still there providing and going ahead to provide a place that would restore and bring me peace. He was refining who I was and molding me, bringing me through a world of hurt to be who I am today! So do I trust Him? YES!!! I don't have to question, I know. He has proven faithful time and again and because of that, I can be faithful to Him. I can willingly hand myself over knowing that whatever His will is, it's only for my good. The song choice for this week is one that I have sang myself many times and I feel every word...I think it may be time to pull it back out!
Jeremiah 29:11–13
[11] For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. [12] Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. [13] You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. (ESV)
🤎 K
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