One of the many...

     "For me, my whole life is full of testimonies. I can trace the hand of God back as far as I can remember, but I recently shared one of those times and one of the most powerful, I will share that here! 

     I have always loved the Lord. Growing up we did not go to church, but we were a believing family. When I learned that I was pregnant for the first time I knew that I wanted to raise the child in the church, and I did. That is actually a testimony in itself! It has not stopped since then. I am still here nearly 21 years later serving the Lord to the best of my ability in the Church house. However, 3 years ago....

     I was hot on seeking the Lord, learning everything I could. What I didn't realize was that I ended up looking and heading down the wrong path in searching! I had actually ventured down the path of new age. I didn't know that at the time and definitely was not my intention! But none the less, there I went. Now new age is very tricky and doesn't necessarily turn you from Jesus, it just puts the focus on YOU. It opens you up to the spiritual realm in a way that makes it seem so innocent. Let me tell you, the spiritual realm is nothing to play with! So while I had not lost Jesus, the main focus was not on Him either. 

     So 2 years ago I had a health scare. It scared me half to death and left me anxiety ridden to this day. During that time I was very weak physically and mentally. It took me out of church for a few months and that is very hard to do. I wasn't seeking anything spiritual at that time, I was wrecked mentally. It got to the point where I felt like I had no hope. My body was literally dying and of course mentally I was as well. I was lost in the pit of nothingness. The last thing I had been looking into unknowingly at the time was new age, so Jesus had been taken from the center.  

     My brother and sister in law had been struck with tragedy and it seemed like all of us had been battling anxiety. I spoke with my sister in law quite a bit and she was so helpful to me. The difference between her and I though, she was finding refuge in the Lord. It was during a text conversation with her one day that it just hit me. Out loud I spoke "Oh my God, I need Jesus". The tears started flying and...He heard me. Like a flood, hope and the remembrance of who I am in Christ came rushing in and instantly I knew that I was going to be just fine! I had that iconic moment of the hand reaching down and pulling me out. The healing had begun in an instant and continues to this day. 

     That of course sparked a fire. I had been opened up to how scary the spiritual realm can be and I knew and know that you only need one name...JESUS. There is no other name. He will show up and darkness WILL bow. I know that I can be very zealous for the Lord, but it is only because I know very well what the darkness looks like and I am not going back there. I was delivered from that and I know to whom I belong, none other than the holy and precious Christ Jesus my king. No going back.